the resolution

in 2009 i gave away my heart.

in 2010 it was broken.

in 2010 i almost died,

and was given the chance to live.

in 2011 i plan on living.

i plan on continuing buddhism.

i plan on hard work and exercise.

i plan on laughter

and romance

and happiness.

i plan on taking control.

this is my year.

missed the last train home

the appendix doesn't really have a purpose for the human body.

i'm beginning to feel a lot other things don't count either.

so many of my nerves and cells are useless and wasted.

i am so tired of making horrible decisions.

my eyes are heavy, sleep never comes, to mock me of my mistakes.

december is so cruel. bones and blood traded with ice.